I have my plans, my dreams and my long list of things I would love to do before I die just like many of you today but this is my new beginning. This is my story and I would love to share it with whoever is reading this right now. I might not be the best writer, I might not be the best speller or have the best grammar but I know I have a story to tell and a story I will tell. I want to share my ups and my downs, I want to share my struggles because believe me if things go anything like they have been there will be and who knows you might have a little laugh at some of them. I know I have!
Why a new beginning....I'll tell you!
A few weeks ago I believed that I was going to die, yes literally I thought that this was the end of my journey and God wanted me with him. I was in a car accident which seems to be haunting me still and I have heard that this was normal but here it is, a detailed view of what I remembered on that horrible day.
It was just your average Monday afternoon, and as usual I went to work at 13:30 to pick up the boys I au pair for at school. To do this, I have to drive on a very busy and dangerous high way known as the N3. I've never been a nervous driver and I have always been careful. On this fateful day, I switched lanes to the fourth lane on the high way to overtake a truck or well I think that was what I was doing. I remember looking into my rear view mirror and saw a white car speeding in my lane but thought that he had more then enough time to slow down because well he was at least 100m away from me.
Little did I know, he obviously didn't have enough time or he could possibly have been on his cellphone but he drove right into the back of me. I watched him drive into the back of me and the worst part is that he didn't even look like he was slowing down. I had no idea what to do but I let go of the wheel and pulled my legs towards me. My car spun out and flew across three lanes on the highway before hitting the barrier and spinning out again and hitting the barrier once again at a stop. I was in hospital for three days with a concussion and a few other injuries but nothing too serious.
I remember thinking that this was it, this was my time to leave this world. I hadn't said goodbye to everyone properly but this was my time. Funny enough I was at peace with this, I didn't mind. But for some reason I am still here today, alive and happy!
For the following weeks after that, I've been in this haze of question. I've been in a haze of question because not so long after that I lost a friend of mine who I never thought would leave us. She was such an incredible woman who I aspire to be like. She touched so many peoples lives, and was a bright beam wherever she went and this got me thinking.
My friend is up in Heaven with her God that she loved so much, He was her everything and her life and He saved me so I can have some extra time on this planet and even though I am sad that she has left and I question it all the time, I still think to myself that she was put in my life for a reason and she showed me how to live in a true Godly way and I strive to live as she did.
This is my new beginning, this is my new beginning in life, in love, in struggles, in laughter, in everything that I can think of. But I strive to be a 'Lydia' or as someone called her a Little Christ. So I'm going to be sharing my opened view to life now and share my thoughts on everything and anything.
